Tears

"What have you done for your class? The best class in whole form 5 can came out with this type of work?? By handing up this to me is what u all called 'the best'? Rubbish, rubbish!! "

Outside the physics lab, shouting, scolding, blaming, like a starving tiger, never eat for 2 weeks, want to eat all of us. My heart still pumping, I can even hear the beat - slow-fast-fast-slow-slow-slow-fast-fast... Fast=bloody, slow=cold. I try to stay calm, telling my heart 'hey, stop pumping so hard, it hurts.' My ear start to ache. I know my heart will stop beating soon, where when it stop, it will drop, like a glass dropping down from a table, smashing itself into hundreds and thousands of pieces. While the 'lecture' still going on, I try to think of some suggestion to solve the problems since the mistake has been done. A great quiet and freezing movement of her body, the sight of her eyes staring straight where it lies on an object alarmed me. This situation is the most horrible scene I've seen before, many times, which will really breaks my heart and I do not wish to see it happen again, not even once more in my eyes. The next moment, all I knew was I am praying that she will leave as soon as possible. Two minutes passed. She walked away, at last! She is still frozen there, not even a blink of her eyes took place. I took a deep breath, pulling her hand and open my heavy mouth "Let's go". My mind is blank, totally blank. She moved, following me, enter the lab, threw her book on the table, took a chair and sat down, resting her head on the table, her eyes closed. From the sound produced by the book hitting the table and the banging of the chair to the floor tells me that she is very very very angry and it was really too much that her anger exceed the limit she can take it. Tears came flowing down, drop by drop, slowly, with a slight mourning. I never seen her crying before even when she is really angry. Everything that come into my retina told me that she is really hurt, full of anger that carry an invisible question 'why this world is so unfair'. I try to comfort her but the word just cannot come out from my mouth. The vocabulary, nice and comfortable words are stirring in my brain, stirring round and round and round but cannot form a suitable sentence. I just can't go into her situation which is so down and yes, really down. Sitting beside her, doing nothing, not even a word from teacher can enter my ears, still aching. At that instant, I felt that she is just like the glass, drop and broke into pieces, which cannot be form back perfectly, down and broke into tears. My heart, just like the tears, drop and split into small drops, the small drops is then evaporated to the air and disappear and leaving the water mark there. What can I say? I am so speechless. We have a fragile heart, many things that we went through made us sad, that broke our heart into thousands of pieces which give us tears and after the tears, leaving the water mark on it, reminding us that we have done this and that mistakes, learn from it, do not commit the same mistake again. Sometimes, a simple things and worthless small matter shouldn't be taken too seriously until you hurt others so deep and drop your most valuable tears. For every tears you drop, make sure it has a value in it. Be strong!

Do not let your heart be troubled
and do not be afraid for the
Lord is my light and my salvation,
whom shall I fear?

Lay Your Burdens at the Foot of the Cross.

*(I also don't know what am I writing)