Get high!!

Hahahahahaha.... hahahhahahahha.. hahahhahhahhahhahaha.. Don't know what I'm laughing. HAahahahahahahaa.. Ahahahahaha.... hehehehehehehehhahahhahahheheahhahahaha.. Still don't know what i'm laughing. Hahahahhahhahhehehehahaheheaheahehahehahhahahahhahaa........ Woohoo... Can't stop... hehehahahahaha.. Have to stop too.. Hehe...

Well... went to pbsm farewell today.. 12.30 to 2.30pm. And.. haha.. had chicken chop.. really nice and it cost me rm2 only.. hehe.. pbsm subsidise.. Actually, did not feel like writing blog today. But, I promised that have to jot down the happy and nice moment to share with others and I don't want to feel regret after this for not writing down how I feel. I was quite happy today. In pbsm farewell, I feel that I am also an individual that others will respect. I do not have this feeling that others will be happy to see me or wanted to respect me in my life. This is the first time I saw the truest smile, flowing out from everyone's heart, which melts my heart that's been frozen so long ago. Although I am just holding the lowest post, wakil tingkatan 5.

Sis friend's dad, send us to church after the lunch. Big chehcheh says that there will be a training session for musician today at 3pm. Reach there around 2.40pm and since it's sooo early, begging my sis to teach me some simple steps of how to play piano and drum. This continue till 3.40pm as don't know where the big chehcheh went and at last pop out around this time with my D-sifu, bANNAna behind. D-sifu starts to teach me some method of playing drum and the beat of the drum too. It seems easy but I just don't know why is it so hard for me. Then my sis practise first.. She don't wanna let me practise after she played sooo long..(sobsob) No choice. Then I go play tambourine with T-sifu. And haha.. we played different style for some song instead of Acts all the time. Then when no more songs can go with tambourine, I went to backup stage. Joining temporary W-sifu to sing. Playful D-sifu & T-sifu also there. And when time goes, 5pm already. Uncle Shankar came. Being the temporary backup, I really sang myself out. My sis doing LCD now. Big chehcheh go and record the songs leh.. I x.x lo.. When replay, can hear that all out of tune.. paiseh man.. My sis had a great time laughing all the way back. Anyway.. she laugh hers and I laugh mine. Bringing along with me a heavy burden I step in the church, and with a light and flying heart I jumping out of the church. I really sang myself out, in, up, down, upside down and downside up. ^.^ Huh... Praise God that He gave me joy again. I tried to forget my past and many unhappy things from today. It had really been a tough time for me these 5 years since form 1. I feel lucky for my sis and bro that they dont have to be as I am. I was such a failure those days. I just hope that I can find someone which can really help me to step out from this dark and full-of-sorrow life. I want to forget my past!! God, all I can do is surrender myself to you..


(Feel happy just now but when it come to the end of this writting, feel so down.. Wasn't a suitable starting and.. with such a terrible grammar. haiz..)