I cried today.
the tears that rolled down was painful, hurting and torturing.
it's like the hot and thick blood, squeezing through blocked arteries, very hard and high pressure..
all to the neck, head and brain.
the heart breaks, like a sharp knife being stabbed into it, the taste of the blood...
I am really tired...
I really can't take it...
tears dropping like rain...
non stop.
the cry, is very painful.
.....
I don't want this cry...
it's hurting me so much and I can't take it.
no one is there for me,
no comforting words,
no warm hugs,
only cold fan
and loud music covering the crying sound
in the middle of no where..
:'(
......
Find me the cry that's releasing, warm and comforting..
I want that cry,
that she hugs me,
holding my hands and praying for me,
where you can feel the touch of God,
where you can find comfort and confident,
the rest and...
the releasing of every burden..
:'(
.......
I need rest, Father...
I am trying my very best to change everyday...
and now I am exhausted..
teach me, Father.
teach me to rest on you, to rely on you..
I can't do this myself..
I can't live without You being my master...
-the crying servant
September rant
9 years ago
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Matthew 11: Jesus Gives True Rest
25 At that time Jesus answered and said, “I thank You, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, that You have hidden these things from the wise and prudent and have revealed them to babes.
26 Even so, Father, for so it seemed good in Your sight.
27 All things have been delivered to Me by My Father, and no one knows the Son except the Father. Nor does anyone know the Father except the Son, and the one to whom the Son wills to reveal Him.
28 Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”
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