Release

I know,
the brokenness inside,
it's time to let go...
But how?
I have even forgotten what had broken me
just the effects are all inside
all left broken..
the heart,
is really in pieces that cannot be counted.
yes, sometimes i will remember some of those things that hurt me
it will pop out suddenly
in a time of no when
and in a place of no where.
I will suffer
and grief
and mourn
and once again the heart break into more pieces..
it just got deeper day by day and every time i think of it.
although i really don't know what has broken me by now
but i cry alone when i think of it
and no one knows.
human who hear or read of this now,
might say
nonsense, you think too much or finding problems for yourself
but that is what really in me,
the brokenness.
arguing about this has no benefit at all.
as You have allowed the Holy Spirit to give Sham this feeling
and You have told her all about me even before any word from anyone enters her ear
and You have allowed her to sense my heart,
I'm coming to a conclusion
that is to let it go
although i don't know how
but i trust in You
to see the invisible and do the impossible.
So teach me and show me the way to do it!
I don't want to backslide.
because I know I love You.
and You love me
where no one else can do it.