Best or Cruel?

Biology paper on Monday. Read some bio notes today. Well.. online this afternoon. Suddenly.. thinking of her. Facebook, search. Found it!! But is that her? Name, yes. One and only search result.. Hmm.. photo.. a puppy.. [Add As Friend], clicked.

Didn't met, for 5 years. Stop writing letter to her, 2 years ago. Is this a cruel decision that time? Or the best decision? I have no more choice but to do this. Yes, it hurts. But for her good. I don't want her to be hurt more deeply. Let all this end before we can't step out from it.

How's she now? Healthy? More pretty? Mature? Happy? Smart? Rich? Popular? Kind-hearted? Or still the same as last time? Cute? Childish? Naive? Talkative? And, she still angry with me? I really don't know.

It was a really hard and tough time for me to walk out from that. It took me 2 years. After suffering that pain for 3 years. Should I begin again? Yes, I think. I still need friends, but never repeat that again. I will never step too close now. At least a length distance of one stretched hand.

How's the situation now, I don't know. Only 1 thing I can be sure of, there's a scar in our heart. I hope she will still enjoy herself with her "new" friends. I have a sense that deep in our heart, there's still a little space for our memory, regardless how busy we are with our present life. Unless.. unless.. she really desperate towards me.. Then I have nothing to say. Just let time wash away the pain..

Hope she found a true friend she can rest on when she's tired and make her smile again when she cry. All the best, although our promises cannot be fulfilled. Waiting for the day I can meet her again. A best decision or a cruel one? haiz..~